RaNdoM .. O.o

hmm...

Well........... mmmm ..................

You know.... ?? !! I don't =/ ...

Oh wait..maybe I do ...

Buh am not sure thou .... (-.-)

What the fuck is wrong with meh ...? O.o am so bloody insanely blank :|

Jeez ...

My head hurts ... it's suddenly so heavy ...and painful ...and idk ..!!

this boredom is sooooo random :0

Wtf .. what's so wrong ...??

whoa .. something is so out of the way not right .. I ain't usually this boring ..

or bored ..

Grrr I don't know ... Why the fuck am I even writing this crap ..?

God knows.. Arghhhhh

Screw, I am so blown up .. I probably need a therapy or maybe some counselling ..

maybe that would help .. hmm ..just maybe ..

Though it's kinda unbelievable .. no counselling can get me right ..

I am so ruined and ..eRr I dunno .. not even in mood to think of adjectives ..!!

Am I in any sort of mood ..? :-?

I dunno .. I guess am not

*sigh*

Hopes

Here am back hoping to come out with something productive. Ok, the reason why I highlighted the word "hoping" is kinda ironically done. I was watching Grey's Anatomy and it got me wondering.

Wondering how we humans are treated like some big fucking rascals by life. We laugh when we are happy and course we cry when upset. As I believe, happiness is something that doesn't stay for long.

"Noone dies virgin. Life fucks everyone."

The moment our hopes are high, Bam..!! Life has this beautiful way of punching right in our eye and shouting at us, "Darn ..!! You don't have the right to be happy for this long."

I fail to understand why does this happen only when our hopes are high. If we stop hoping, things fall into place but that won't be situation to live in. Its often said, "Do good to others but don't expect anything in return." Who the bloody hell had this much in him to be God and say this crap..? I mean, jeez, if we do something good for others, if we take all shit on us just to make people we love happy, why can't we expect them to understand how we feel being pushed away..? Is it only them who's in trouble..? Are they the only ones who are bearing the heaviest problems of the world..? Oh, this is bullshit. I really don't understand how can anyone be such a saint.

This is so awful. Make others happy, sacrifice for them but hey, do kill your hopes to be treated anywhere near to human.

Guyz who want girls to be pure, have a flawless past.. jeez dude, get a life. You no God Rama to deserve Sita. Everyone makes mistakes. But you guyz are so fucking proud over nothing. What in the world makes you think you can get any girl huh..? You think girls run behind money..? Well if you do, great, go ahead and marry a girl who can be your slave just because you got money. Why in the bloody world you play with innocent girl's heart huh..?

As for guys who get treated this way, mayne...

People in love, WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS HAVE SOME SELF RESPECT ..? Why do you guys let love blind you..? Why do you let love take over your mind and self respect..? Why do you have to be this weak to let your heart being ripped apart by some a*s hole ..? I hate people who keep consoling themselves and hoping things to be right at some point of time and being treated worthwhile.

Be it life or the person you love (rather the idiot who doesn't treat you well), none has any right to give this nuisance to you. Why can't you people stand up for yourselves ..? If they (love and life) hit you hard, hit them back with even more power and tell them who's stronger.

I have learnt, there's nothing wrong in hoping. Nothing wrong in hoping from ourselves. Hoping to fight through, hoping to come out of bad times as a stronger person.

It's not easy. I know. So, I have been trying and am getting better. Hope this helps you too.

Thats just me

P.S. Always remember, people never change. They might change their habits or external traits, but within they NEVER change. Experience has taught me that.

.Cheers.

A confused query

Hmm..just another random timepass.

Actually I have been wondering what's it like for people who are famous..? Particularly, the football players. They are all realli famous, lead a luxurious life. All they need is to play awesome and win and then party all night. If in case they lose, they just mourne over it and move on. They have to prove something to the world. But ultimately, all they have is their football.

What about their personal lives huh..? Do they forget their friends and close ones in all the glamour..? Do they remember them..? What about people who are close to them but not in real sense. I don't think I am making a point here. It's quite complicated to explain. It would have been clear if I could have spilled out the whole deal. But unfortunately, that's exactly what i can't do.

Anyhow, what I am trying to think is, do popular guys remember their friends from past..? Hmm..how is it for those who have experienced being pushed away by such people..? Is it worth sticking up for them, accepting the humiliation and ignorance just because we love thema nd know the times can be rough for them..? I really really can't see if am being clear on any part. I am confused myself. Like I said, only if I could spill out whole of the truth.

Well, simply, a good luck wish to people who have been pushed away and who might face same situation.

God Bless All ..

Peace \/

Extravagance

So, I am here. After a long time. Phew. Well, in past few months, life has been great. Simple, sorted, painless. But alongside, it's unlike the fun things like fights, tantrums, drama, adventure, arguments gave.

Once you have a life that provides you with all this sort of fun, it feels boring to be deprived of it. But it's confusing. As much as I love having a sorted life, with no quarrels and no distraction, its getting pretty boring too. I kinda miss having the fun in old days. Life now revolves around books. And to my surprise, when I say such thing, I feel as if am lying to myself. As much as the fact is held that I don't spend as much time with anything else than books, it's also true that required amount of studies aren't being performed or maybe it's my dissatisfaction. Weird it is.

I was told by someone, the time when I'd start feeling that my life is becoming hell and it's approaching the black hole, that would be the best time as that would be the time when I'll stress myself to core to achieve my dreams. It does sound devastating. But it's kind of interesting theory.

I do realise that at this point of time, I am not exactly hating my life, but I am kinda bored. And because of this, I do feel as if am apporaching my aims with a better pace than past.

Jeez, it's 12:20 am. I have my school tomorrow. I'd rather go and sleep now.

Peace \/